Good ol' fashioned Nightmare

This is something that I don't generally tell a lot of people. For some people it isn't a big deal but it is a big deal to me.

I have really bad nightmares. Sometimes they are spread apart, every night, different every time or the same reoccurring bad dream in a row. But no matter what or how many I have, I still wake up scared. Sometimes I have have a hard time falling asleep because of what I might see when I close my eyes. Most people grow out of these things or at least grow out of being afraid of them but my dreams still affect me that way.

The people I am close to, who do know, have helped me a lot. Whether it is texting me until I fall asleep or talking to me on the phone my friends are always there for me if I need them.

The funny thing about my nightmares is that I don't always remember the details when I wake up, I just know that I'm scared. The only time I do remember something about my dreams is when I dream about people I know. These sorts of dreams make me nervous to see them the next day, whether at school or just out and about. Sometimes I try to avoid them because it makes the dream seem more real if I see them right after. My dreams definitely affect my mood and so hopefully that explains my various moods in the morning at school.

Here is my plan to overcome that fear. My first step was to post about it...check. The second step was to choreograph a dance that was about my nightmares only turn it into something ordinary. This is my way of facing these nightmares. If they inspire me to do something creative and unique, they can't scare me anymore...right? When I present this dance to my class, I want to dance in pajamas to symbolize my nightmares even more.

So there is a little more about me. I thought this would be a good idea to write about the morning after a night of nightmares. Again, when I write that out it makes everything seem more dramatic than it actually is. I'm just a girl who is afraid of her bad dreams. Who isn't?