Just ask
I believe people are intricate and complicated enigmas. Most people never truly know someone so they only get tiny pieces to this puzzle. As a teenager, this is incredibly hard. The people I feel I know the most can be counted on one hand. So, AS a teenager, this is what I saw fit to do.
I am now an open book. The thoughts on this blog may not seem like a big deal to any of you, but these are thoughts I felt needed to be bottled up. I cannot give you an explanation for this, but I can tell you how I feel. I have had people tell me I never open up, I don't let people in, and I am impossible to get to know. Those people are gone. I want to be closer with people and I do not mean to complicate things but I'm only human and I am scared. Or I WAS scared. Life is painful enough, so I'm making this as painless as I can.
Just ask
I will tell you how it is, when it is, and exactly how I feel.
Just ask
I won't run, I won't chase, but if you want me to stay. . .
Just ask
Now, this does not mean I am going to make this EASY and EFFORTLESS. I'm simply saying if something is standing in your way, it won't be me. I will tell you when I'm scared, I will tell you when I need space, I will tell you when I need/want you, and I will even tell you when I love you. I was once told I was like a clam: when someone gets close, I clamp shut. WELL YOU ARE WRONG. I am an oyster. I may have a hard shell, but I'm just protecting something inside, my metaphorical pearl. My pearl is everything that makes me who I am.
Do you want to know what makes me who I am? Do you want know more about my pearl?
Just. . . simply . . . ask.
I promise I am an open book, but people have to be brave enough to look beyond the cover. If you don't ask, I assume you don't care or don't want to know or don't want to try. That is your choice. But if someone wants to know me. . .
Ask.
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