The Hippie inside of Me

I guess I kinda consider myself a hippie. Sunshine is my favorite thing in the world right now and wearing shoes is starting to become a burden.  But in all honesty, the clothes I wear and the music I listen to doesn't make me a hippie. The way I think does. I love finding creative ways to describe my life and sometimes they sound a little strange. I told my friend that my hair looked like it was dipped in sunshine, my dad calls me his little flower child, and I try to be as strange as I possible. I want to enoy the simple things in life and make them appear magnificient!  I want to soak up the sun, spend summer nights with some stellar people, make colorful memories, and see how many stars I can count :)

So if I look strange and act strange, I am mostly strange. How I express myself should be a representation who I really am inside. 

Dear World,

I love my life :) It may not be perfect and it may not look perfect to you, but to me, my life is an adventure :) My life is going the direction it needs to go :) I'm growing up (slowly) and now I am fearless! Nothing you can do can scare me anymore. No more monsters under my bed, no more insecurites, just me against you. So bring it on. The people who care about me and love me, will stay where they are in my life. I don't need to be accepted by the people that fill the Earth, I just need the people I love :) I don't need magazines to tell me how to be "pretty". I feel wonderful in my own skin :)

So, unfortunetly World, our fight is over. Because I am me now. Not even you can change that :)

Sincerely,
(Insert your name here)

Kissing the War Goodbye

Now that I am finished with high school, its time for me to clear the air and set some things straight.

I lost a lot of friends at beginning of high school because I changed.  I felt like people would make fun of the person I really was. So, I put on nerd glasses (real, prescription ones), wore funky clothes, and joined the jazz band. I wanted to do things that made me happy. People never understood that and decided who  I was, wasn't me. Even with all of the people who walked out of my life, new people walked in and got to know the real me. It was scary and sometimes I wouldn't open up but eventually it got easier.

I am kind of a victim of first impressions. Because people knew one version of me, they assumed that was all there was to me. This is why I am quiet and kind of awkward at times. People don't interact the old fashioned way (actually talking face to face and spending time together) and that is the way I prefer to get to know someone, not over texting.

I will be honest: I am down right strange. This does not bother me in the slightest. I like being barefoot, listening to indie music, star gazing, and trying new things. I love being spontaneous and having silly, wholesome, fun! :) I would be more impressed with a person who showed up at my door one evening and asked if  I wanted to go star gazing with them than someone who sent me a text that says "Hey."

I am going on a mission. It's out there now! :) I can't wait to be a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints :) This is how I am choosing to serve my church and represent the gospel.

The end of high school marked the end of that extremely lengthy chapter in my life. I don't want to look back and get stuck in the past.  I'm not crying because it's over,  I am smiling because it happened.

If you already know me, let's start over new and fresh and forget everything that happened.  If you don't know me, I hope we meet and create new memories and have lots of adventures.

My fight or "war" of who knows me, how they know me, and what they think of me is over. I survived and now I am done with the awkwardness that is high school. I kissed it goodbye the day I graduated :) High school is only one chapter in the Table of Contents of my life.